suicide hotline
-Prelude-
Fuck it all:
The Image that Kills in Relation to pretentious shit fucking Urbanites.
As a proud member of the United National Front of Inebriated Tardos (or Unfit) I hereby again call the war cry. As it all sits on the crusty cushion of a red stained swank bar stool I am currently vacationing away from my ivory room, tarnished existence in the balmy over-priced, excessively populated city of San Francisco. One my note the consequences that such a social setting shift would have on my young impressionable mind...
we are damned, if anything all hope I once had is finally evaporated like the K.Y. off a fags ass after four hours of anal activities. How my pride in becoming a closet case hillbilly fuck swells. Being alone compared to being alone with them is a choice that reaffirms and redefines itself. May plate tectonics do what my lack nuclear physic carpentry cannot. Not to say that I'm not enjoying the frivolous absence of scruples or the never ending fashion parade that is each persons failed attempt at giving themselves a social meaning/identity, (high school bells even chime in the distance) or even the putrid nil quality of poetry (Cait, thanks for trying to save us). On the contrary, the blinding intensity of full scale ideological abandon is seductive once fed enough E (which I didn't do) shiny and expansive a black hole of popularity and parties attempting to suck you in and kiss your ass. Immediately your head begins to swell after a few quick clips with a fry-pan of bullshit, bubbling undulantly around your ears swarms dropping locative pronouns, adjectives...collectively form more trivial conversations.
Time-Out: A Fact Sheet
1. Just because you can engage in a quasi-political conversation on a mendacity like "clean air
environmentalism" doesn't mean:
a. you're one of the righteous
b. you're smart
c. you aren't a privileged douche-bag usurping mommie and daddies pensions or that because
of "activism" this somehow justifies middle class illusions/world views.
Note of Random Interest
Your primary focus of individual growth, enlightenment, and development should be the continual challenge of your indoctrination or A.K.A everyday beliefs, emotions and passive responses.
2. At least crack heads and low grade street whores can hold conversations that pertain to immediate reality.
Anyway, what I'm getting at is that I am supposedly in the most liberated city in America and I feel like this is the closest I'll ever get to 1935 Nazi Berlin. Things here are just as full of shit as everywhere else only here it's cool to be pretentious about it. An endless fashion show where political involvement can be worn on your body, and mental atrophy can be disguised by catch phrases and .50 cent words....maybe I'll move here.
AnnieM